This New Year (Spring)  I was tested! From my heart to my habits to my patience even down to certain family members. I argued, I almost gave up, I walked away and I doubted everything being shown in front of me. I realize that even though I had gotten far with my growth, I still had work to do!!! Then to top it all off I still had to work, to be mom , be friend, daughter, sister , lover, counselor etc. Yet no one knew what I was battling internally nor did they even ask !!!!! But this was my journey not theirs.

So I took a break from the spells and started working on what I needed and wanted out of this season. It was hard to not dabble in magic because I felt that was how I ended up with so much already! What I didn't realize was that the magick was within me! The materials etc were just additives!.. I realize that I didnt trust me enough. I didn't love me enough to go for it and that needed to change! That's why I kept seeming to get tricked back into old toxic shit because I didnt believe I was powerful enough to evolve on my own!🔮

This season showed me how powerful I am when it really gets down to it as well as how much more work I needed to do!

I got complacent (didnt have that drive to go for it that much more), shallow       ( so focused on my looks that I was thinking about taking toxic shit just to get a booty like others!), Over indulged in herb so I didn't have to deal with my powers full on. I WAS TURNING MYSELF INTO CHICKEN SHIT BEFORE MY EYES!!! Then BOOM I was requested by my ancestors to do a very powerful spell that required me to quit all of that shit for 3 months or my future and the person I was helping health would not be promising! I realize it wasn't about me at all!!!! I fought it hard but ultimately had to give in.

It hurt to realize how far I had strayed, how self sabotaging I was! How one track minded I had become! That I kept getting sucked back into other people's bull shit!!  Even creating extra bull shit within my life! When people had spouse problems, they would call and lay all of their shit on my lap and id scoop it up, if they had doubts , worries etc. I would absorb their shit to make them feel better but would never hear them utter a phrase as "Are you ok?! How are you doing?" Instead it was you did this , you did that when I didn't jump when they wanted. Instead of explaining to them that I will no longer be their dumping ground, I bottled it up and I created a procrastinating monster!!! I stopped cold turkey! Even dropped those that seem to only bring up toxic shit about others but never corrected themselves! I was falling into that old pattern of pointing the finger and blaming others for the responsibility of my happiness!

Some got angry , said hurtful shit I will never forget! Some disspeared and some told me to get to work!!! I took all of that and realized that each one was right in their own way! I asked my ancestors for guidance and I was told to stop being a puss and make it happen!!! Everything I want is at my fingertips but I cannot only focus on the future. Or stay angry because of the past, I must be in the now!!

So I say this to say, no ones perfect but its up to YOU to find you! Your Shadow work is not going to be pretty , Hell your awakening either but it's worth it. To open up all the wounds and instead of pouring salt into them and expecting others to cry with you (Misery loves company) I'll stich them bitches up myself and then ill be patient and let it heal first!!!  💌 ( Never let someone rush your evolution when they haven't even recognized theirs)💌

Im not perfect but I don't aspire to be! I aspire to be me! The ying and the yang.. ⛔NEVER let someone make you feel bad for evolving and leaving them behind if they dont want to!!! NEVER stay complacent because its easy!!! Everything I asked for is staring me in the face waiting on me to glow up and catch it while so many are waiting on me to fail OR have already shown how they feel about my own personal journey!! FUCK 👏THEM👏...

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People will try to bring you down when they havent even met their shadow person yet!! So I say write down your pros and cons you feel about your self. Ask your lover what could you work on Instead of always complaining about what they can do to make you happy. Its not their job its yours!! Figure out what makes you happy besides material attachments!!! Your house, car, clothes can easily be taken away , believe me!! So be humble ☝.

It is my job to make me happy! The blessings I receive along the way are markers letting me know that the light at the end of the tunnel is near. And the negative too because its all a test.. Keep going!! Accept your good and bad !

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❤ To start your work you can find a habit you  feel has been crippling to you. Your escapism is what's holding you back! Whether is anger , weed , liquor , money , sex ,  negative attention , gossiping, being a victim , jumping from relationship to relationship... There is a message within that you needed to listen to before you can evolve or you'll keep going through the same shit diff..day...

I'm growing everyday but I be dammed if I stifle my growth to make others comfortable, that's their own battle!! I'm focusing on mine now!!!

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I will be starting my spell work again on this new 🌙 and even though I'm tired & Fighting these old habits so I will not repeat them, I am proud that I have gotten this far!!

🌻If you ever feel  chaos take a "White Bath" (Look it up lets be more proactive!!)  or you can go out to a tree and hug it. My favorite is playing my favorite music and dancing until I can't anymore.. Never let current circumstances, others misery or your doubt stop you from soaring higher than you ever thought!! Your balance depends on it💋

As someone who makes me feel that I need to step my shit up and a reflection of everything I'm working on said....

GET TO WORK

NEST EGG SPELL

This spell is a quick and easy way to start creating rituals for yourself and to start believing in patience and confidence.

These are the ingridients that you need for this spell:

1. Egg

2. Parsley

3. Green Candle

4. Parchment Paper Potions & Tings

5. White Sage

6. Multiplier Oil Potions & Tings

First empty your egg by putting one hole into it. Drain out the inside contents without damaging the egg. ( if egg breaks start again) Next you will use your Parchment Paper or any paper you can use and put down your intentions whether that be money or an object or a certain emotion. Put that into the egg and fill the egg with grounded parsley until it reaches the top. Burn your green candle that has your multiplier Oil on the wick and burn the wax on top of the whole until it is covered completely. Burn your white sage and speak your intentions into the egg. Once you are done, you find a fertile place in your yard where you can dig a whole and place  the egg in the whole and bury it into the ground pour some water onto it and that's it! Now you learn to wait until it sprouts your intentions into the earth.

It is always good to do all money/prosperity spells on Thursdays! Even though anytime is a good time just follow your gut. I will go more into depth with why that is important later on this month with my Bruja subscribers. TC

More spells , rituals and ideas are on my site! Just look it up!! Be sure to tell me or show me how your spells went! TcHighVibes@gmail.com

This can be by your self with

( Masturbation) OR with a partner through sex.

While you are in the 'act', visualize what you want. ( Make sure you are giving in this world as well, you will receive what you want when you have a healthy balance of give/take.) When you are reaching your climax, see yourself where you want to be or with what you want to have. If its money , I think about laying in a pool of it or seeing it raining down on me. If it is a material object, I think of myself using that object, driving it or wearing it. If it's with a person , I visualize me with that person, doing certain activities to the detail. !!!Make sure if it is of a person that-that person is connected to you in some kind of way. A friend, mutual, etc.!!! You have to put in the work too! you cant expect to sit on your ass eating chips and masturbate your way to a summer body, or with millions etc. You have to be out there doing the work as well, exercising deciding to eat right, working on a plan for your business or how to get a side hustle at least, even going out to certain places to try to meet those like-minded people you are wanting to meet etc. Dont be lazy!!!!!

Then you wait, learn patience and let it grow into fruition,you grow etc. You must also believe that whatever it is that you desire is yours already!

I suggest you try to forget about it, do not dwell on it too much and let it surprise you. That makes it so much more kick ass for me lol. TC

TIP: Get you a journal and personalize it. Write down what you want, your goals , where you want to go, how etc. in your journal. Date it so you can look back on how much has come to life and how strong you were during times you thought you weren't.

REMEMBER! The divine does not run on our manmade 24 hour clock schedule. So be patient with yourself , stay positive and have fun!! TC